i'm not sure if this is the right topic, but the name is fitting and even though its about my hamster, it fits multiple categories, and i cant post in all of them so
i'm in literal despair and i've cried multiple times for the past days
my hamster, who i adopted 1 week ago, broke his wheel and as it was attached to the wall, it got loose, so i removed it cuz it might fall on him and hurt him. so he has no wheel now
he seems bored due to the lack of enrichment and now without wheel he's even more bored, doing a lot of pacing
i decided to start free roaming with him to compensate for the wheel loss but he seemed stressed after his very first free roaming session, which i guess its normal, but it still worries me, maybe he doesn't like free roaming and if thats the case then i just cant do anything for him to get exercise
he got diarrhea and i'm afraid it might develop to wet tail if he's stressed enough
i also can't take him to a vet because we can't pay and because we don't have anything to carry my hamster inside, no traveling cage, no box, nothing
i think the lack of wheel is causing his activity to decrease too and i'm afraid it might actually be a symptom of wet tail
i also can't buy ANYTHING. i'm 15 so i depend on my parents, and they have NO MONEY and my dad will only receive his salary NEXT WEEK. tonight my sister will see if she can find a new wheel in the petshop we bought him but i doubt that they will have the proper size. the online store we use the most to buy our items is slow in delivery, and my hamster can die in the meantime before the items arrive. i can't give him enrichment, wheel nor new supplies, so he'll keep bored
im also not sure if i can ask my sister to take me to places or buy me stuff cuz she and/or her boyfriend might refuse and complain
I can't clean his enclosure because i have no new supplies, no new bedding, no new sand, nothing
and my parents, especially my dad, don't take anything seriously cuz they think that because its a small pet, its insignificant and i'm being "ToO cAreFuL". im just completely sure that if i tell them my hamster is ill and needs a vet, they will refuse to take me there cuz they dont think its necessary. my dad literally told me to prepare my heart cuz these animals die when i said my hamster might have gotten diarrhea. who says that?
i've had a hamster before and it was a disaster, she suddenly died one day (she was terribly treated because she was a surprise pet my mom gave me, so i was 0% prepared). i think it created a trauma inside me.
i think he's going to die. i think i'm doing everything wrong and it's all my fault.
i don't think he's going to last not even a month if this keeps going. he'll either die from an illness or over-stress. i feel completely helpless and worthless and i'm just so stressed. this is making things worse for my anxiety and it's making me have rather triggering thoughts. i don't know what will happen to me if he dies. everything feels like a time bomb and every time i wake up i expect to find him laying dead.
...what do i do?