She started screaming in pain and started seizuring while still screaming and shaking aggressively, my siblings were asking if she was okay and I kept saying no she’s not no she’s not while rushing her to my mom and we kinda watched her and comforted her.
We thought there was nothing, I felt like I was dreaming it was like this weird trance I’ve never felt ever before. It was terrifying but I just wasn’t fully aware of what was happening, it was like complete dissociation.
I was starting to get extremely lightheaded until I couldn’t lift my arms. I figured I was about to pass out, not surprising because I always figured if I lost one of my gecko babies I would probably pass out.
But then my mom said her eyes were starting to open, and I felt some hope after that. But blood started coming out of her mouth. I lost all hope by then and just laid back and somewhat cried (I was too much in a dream state to cry) but then it stopped. We thought she was just eternally bleeding but… I think she just bit her tongue… *sigh*
Anyway, she licked and swallowed up the few drops (btw it wasn’t like full on bleeding, it was like two little drops. She took a minute to come back to consciousness but then she was literally fine and trying to jump away again… she was literally acting fine.
Reality finally kicked in and I sobbed harder than I have… probably ever. I hyperventilated, I kept almost throwing up, just full out sobbing for so long.
Sorry if anything I wrote doesn’t make sense, I’m hallucinating right now because of the whole thing.
What we think it was: she hit her head. She passed out and started seizuring. I’m guessing she bit her tongue, because she has a abnormally large tongue (it’s constantly sticking out a little bit it’s cute though) so I’m guessing from the pressure she bit it extremely hard. But, back to the seizure, I would figure she would have a concussion… but she’s acting completely normal now. So idk.
Anyway, just needed to rant. I’m still in shock and horrified right now because of that, honestly I’ve never felt fear like that before, I’m just horrified and just feel so horrible right now. I just almost lost my sweet little baby and it’s all my fault because I’m a <fuzzy teddy-bear>ing idiot. I watched her scream and seizure in front of me when it could have been avoided if I wasn’t so stupid and irresponsible. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me, why do I take these risks just to end up hurting the only things that really matter to me? I just wish I could go back and make it never happen…
But, I’m beyond happy that she pulled through…. Idk how she recovered so quickly. She’s so strong and amazing, I love her so much. I can’t imagine if she had died that horrible, painful death because of my stupidity.
Anyway, just needed to rant. Thanks if you read this whole thing… that’s pretty epic so ur a real one <3
Edited by Whitewhiskers, 02 April 2022 - 01:18 PM.
don’t beat yourself up about it! I wish you and your lizard the best 
